Not guilty!

Feeling guilty for having chronic illnesses is just off. It's off. It's wrong. It's unnecessary. I mean, aside from making you feel bad emotionally, it doesn't help with your physical health, does it? This is the quote that finally got through to me: From Practicing The Power of Now, one of the "how to" sections with bold print at the beginning (page 130 if you have the book): When you are ill or disabled, do not feel that you have failed in some way, do not feel guilty. Do not blame life for treating you unfairly, but do not blame yourself either. All that is resistance. My take on this: Blame pins the past and future to an illness, so you're burdened with years of whatever tribulations, pain and failure you suffered in the past and also burdened with the potential pain and suffering of the future. Blame keeps you (the spirit) smothered and feeds the pain body (I'm not referring to the chronic illness here, but a sort of egoic entity that feeds off any sort of pain, but especially emotional pain, and helps smother the spirit). Blame is resistance. Resistance isn't what the spirit is about. The spirit is freedom. Sure, I'm chronically ill, but that isn't me. It's my body. It's something that happens to a body. I was blaming myself, however. I was feeling guilty. But there's nothing I can do about this illness that I'm not already doing. So no more guilty. You know, guilty also gets in the way of creativity. Creativity is an act of freedom, the spirit. So "Not guilty!" as I said in the blog title. :-) If I can't work. I can't work. If I can, I will, and I'll accept how it goes because it's a whole lot nicer than being "guilty sick author". I'd rather be just me.